Changes....BIG Changes...

For the past two weeks, my Daddy has been in the hospital. What we thought was a minor stroke turned into 2 cancerous brain tumors, 2 brain surgeries, and so far, 2 weeks of recovery & 2 weeks of hospital visits. What a challenge!!
-A challenge to selfishness to step back and sit on the back burner.
-A challenge to our new marriage to stand strong in the midst of fear that has never reared its ugly head before.
-A challenge to believe "impossible" promises.
-A challenge to see with VISION, not with sight.

I'm home now, with my husband, trying to get back into the swing of things. But even that is hard to do as we are working on moving back to St. Lucie County. We have sent out resumes, applications, and looked for housing online.
Our house is half packed in boxes in hopes of being able to pack up soon. The other half remains unpacked...what if things don't work out like we want them to?
Today I felt that familiar FAITH in me again.
That faith that refused to cry when the doctors told us that we would need to decide if wanted CPR or just a comfortable "going."
That faith that was stubborn enough to believe that Daddy would be talking more to me soon than I was talking to him.
That faith that refused to believe anything less than restoration....completely.
THAT faith. I felt it today.
We'll be out of this apartment and into a house, out of Orlando and into PSL, out of our jobs and into new ones....before we know it.
I just know it.
My Jesus, I love Thee....really.

Joy

I long to be a woman of JOY again. I desire to be unoffendable...to laugh off the jokes and the lies....to know who I am and smile. I want a carefree spirit again....to be fun and fearless....to truly enjoy people and know that I am being enjoyed in return.
Teach me Holy Spirit. I need a new lesson in JOY!!

Journal vs. Blog

I have to be honest...I've had a pretty hard time deciding if blogging is for me. I mean, you're talking about a girl who's filled up about 11 journals in the past 10 years! There's just something about a pen and a blank piece of paper- like starting a new year or having a birthday. There's a freshness about it- a chance to make something of it that has never been. It's irresistable to me!
I may become addicted to a fresh white screen and a keyboard at my fingertips- but I highly doubt it. LOL!! If there's more than one blog after this, ENJOY!! If this is the only one, then I guess I couldn't shake my old-fashioned ways. :)
Em